I think that is the exact amount of days we spend in classes during a school year... and according to my mathematical calculations... that's the exact amount of days since my July 30th surgery to today's date. So what wisdom have I gained? What lessons learned?
Here is the big reveal: 99.9% of this journey has little or nothing to do with what's in my mouth and everything to do with what goes on within my two ears. It's all mental - or maybe the lack of food makes me mental... I'm still hashing out those details. I re-read my pre-surgery post and remember back to the pain of the liquid diet... the need to beat myself up because I had a teaspoon of peanut butter or an olive. Oh, and the water... the river of water I drank to fill myself up. I can also remember post surgery and the pain of just a sip of water. And with all that water under the bridge, and that one hundred and eighty days later I can walk around 80 pounds lighter, I still fight with me and my head... I know I'm losing, but I still can't part with my favorite fat jeans.... I hear friends and family tell me I've lost [and I'm just learning to listen], but I still see fat Kathy in the mirror. I haven't hit my goal yet, and I'm still working in that direction.
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